a prayer

i was praying today for an event we are doing with the church here in Idaho. i felt impressed to pray the lord's prayer. and i was thinking about why Jesus would have said to pray like this. Something i want to explain is how we, if we truly believed in what we say we do, would carry out exactly that. i don't believe(yet) that there is any hindrance for us not(that could overcome our ability to.) in knowing this, or believing it, i think Jesus would have said this for more than one reason which God showed me today. That reason being: Jesus was to provoke people to carry out the Lord's prayer. Because if we were simply going to recite something he might as well just have said "stairway to heaven" is the Lord's prayer. But i think that Jesus would have wanted us to pray with our hearts fully into what we were saying. Therefore if we believed what were saying: hallowed be your name(may your name be kept holy), as we forgive those who trespass against us(forgive everyone), we would not just say it but act upon it. We would keep the Lord's name holy, we would forgive, we would rely on God for our daily needs.

Drive

What drives you the most? i really want to know and i want everyone to comment on this telling me what drives them the most or!!! write it on your page and then comment the link to it on mine! thanks.
What drives me the most? Seeing people worship God. Truly worship God, when they know God is right in front of them, i cry. Sometimes i worship by watching other people worship God. To me, watching other people worship God is an act of worship because it increases my faith in God and his promises.
Amen.

:(

i am really discouraged. i am not seeing a point to life
right now. It really seems just boring. there's not need
for me to hold this in because i don't need to look strong
for anyone. If i think of myself less like true humility
desires, who thinks of me? Well God thinks of me. i know
emotions shouldn't come into play with reality or maybe it
should because i am an emotional being, but i really don't
feel good. Is this what humility feels like? Is my desire
to be thought of because i have thought of myself my whole
life until now? I know being happy is not what life is about
at all but will i be happy again? i wanted to learn humility
this summer so that God would use me more. i haven't been used
yet. I am not sure how long i have to wait on God but it sure
seems like he is taking his time! What is the meaning of humility?
Does humility take place so that i would become an instrument
to be used by God and this is my sole purpose for life? Although
i would love to see a product of my labor i know that it is not
about the product but why i labor and who i labor for. Then this
leads me to thinking about why i need to labor when Christ labored
for me. Sure it was for something different something that i could
never do but i take that meaning of freedom farther than just my sins.
i did not become a christian for Christ dying for my sins, i became
a Christian because God cared about my soul. He saw how destroyed my
soul was by a girl because i was giving my life for her and she gave
me nothing in return. God was there and when i heard him care
for me i wanted to learn more about him. Now as i advance to
"advanced doctrines" it makes me not want to be a christian
at all. Legalism is all over the church which tells me to be
legalistic like everyone else. i cannot feel anymore. i became
a christian because i could feel again. i felt like i was
existing to live again, no longer living to exist. Now sadly
i don't feel that way anymore. All i am told to do while being
a christian is how to act, act! Why should i have to act a
certain way so that someone would know Christ. NEver in my
life has anyone every come to know Christ by how i presented
myself as a Christian actor doing good works and not evil.
i hope i am not alone and that others who are the christians
i hope to be would exhort me in any way instead of just telling
me that everything is going to be OK because jesus died for my
sins. I know that, i am holy and blameless before God but i
don't feel free, like i was when i became a christian_ existing
to live.